Searching for Happy
We are all searching for something – More money, better career, better friends or family. We just are seeking happiness and each of us thinks there are things that we can achieve or receive to make us happy. I’ve been searching for that, too.
If we can just make this much money, then I’ll be happy. If I just do this, that will make me happy. One more thing, one more time.. this is it. It’s the answer.
I recently went on a roadtrip with my mom and my kids to see my grandmother. She was listening to this show on YouTube talking about heaven. Roberts Liardon, God’s Generals. In it, Roberts discusses his temporary visit to Heaven as an 8 year old boy. Side note: I’ve always been fascinated by these stories and near death experiences.
Anyway, he describes heaven as perfection. The couch makes you feel comfortable, regardless your position. Your house has everything you want in it. The grass is so green, golf courses pale in comparison. Just listening to him describe it put me in awe and I long to be there.
Where It Lead Me
As I’m relaxing tonight, I am praying asking God to show me something and to speak to me. I feel like he was speaking to me about this. I am exhausted and just thinking if I can just have time to relax, if my husband does this or my kids do that, then I’ll just be able to relax and be happy. Then it hit me, no, I won’t ever be satisfied with anything on earth.
Sure, I’ll enjoy life and be momentarily happy with things, people and money but then the longing and emptiness will hit me again and I’ll go searching for more. Jesus is what I am searching for and heaven. The perfect place that molds itself, according to Roberts, around my comfort. I need to be in His presence worshipping him. It is what I was made to do, what I long to do. I get so busy chasing after everything else, though, that I forget the one thing that will complete me.
So if you are like me, finding life meaningless and dissatisfying, know that the only satisfaction you will ever find is in Jesus.